6 down 2 to go! And flowers received :)

So Today was rough my picc line wasnt working and i almost couldnt get treatment because they were afraid it was a blood clot.

Luckily we got it working after changing the dressing but I still gotta go back to Rush tomorrow to radiology to make sure my picc is in the right place and didnt move into the wrong vein.

I felt something pop in my neck which was why they first suspected a blood clot, which was scarey.. But it could also be just a kink in the tube. I've had a stiff neck on that side the past few days so I'm thinking that may be why.

I might have to part with my picc line sooner then expected which means getting poked with needles again .. But only for two more treatments!

On the bright side some very wonderful people have sent me flowers, today is the second time i've come home from treatment to flowers :D So I wanted to share them with you!

Thank you Lynette for my pink flowers after AC treatment number 3! She is a two time survivor and my Aunts dance teacher :)

Thank you Lindsay Regan for my flowers today! After Taxol treatment number 6! They made me smile after a really rough day :)


Im hoping the pain to come this week is not as bad and im looking forward to putting these last two Chemos behind me! Jan. 9 & 23 are the last ones :D then surgery February 16th. Radiation in April and May (happy bday to me) and then more surgery in July. I got a lot ahead of me but I'm still truckin' ;0)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! & 6th Treatment Coming Up!!!

As Zoey steals and enjoys both her and Mia's candy cane bones it made me thing about Christmas and some things I'm really thankful for:

1. First of all I'm thankful that December is almost over! Which means Chemo is almost over! I go for my 6th treatment Tuesday :) Which means only 2 more after that! (yeah yeah yeah!!!)

2. Taxol is much easier, and aside from one night of excruciating bone pain its very manageable, and I'm going to start walking Zoey again every day!

3. I'm very thankful for my eyebrows and eyelashes.. they are strong! like me, and are still hanging on :) for now... I'm told they can fall out after your very last treatment :/

4. Thank you to all of my friends who realize this is a long stupid process, and aren't just wanting to have me back when its all over (because it may never be over completely). Those of you that are by my side fighting this monster with me you mean more then any gift that could be given :)

5. I'm very thankful for the ability to sleep through these 4 hour chemos! If none of you have ever had benadryl through an IV its like the most potent sleeping pill EVER! it knocked me out for an hour last time, and then I woke up and ordered Jimmy Johns! Thats right.. they deliver to the hospital haha... who knew!

6. Most importantly.. I'm thankful for my health. Although I have cancer the fact that I'm young, and otherwise healthy has made this easier then it could have been.

Happy Holidays everyone! Make it a good one ;)

3 Chemo's Left! & Surgery Talkady Talk

Well Monday was my first Taxol and so far it is WAY better then AC. The only real side effect is horrible muscle aches followed by horrible bone pain. I would compare this to what I imagine an 80 year old with horrible arthritis feels like. NOT FUN. but when I take vicoden it makes everything better.

I also went to see my surgeon today and the date is SET! exactly two months from today February 16th I will be getting the big BMX surgery and hopefully will be cancer free :D *fingers crossed* And as much as it will suck to be stuck in the hospital for 2-3 days, I will be so glad to put it behind me. Then on to Radiation! and followed by more surgeries oi!

For right now all I want is for my eyebrows and eyelashes to hang in there! they've began to thin out a little but i still have like 95%. Also I think my hair might be coming back in! as long as it doesn't fall out again.. I've had some bright blonde stubble sprouting! :D I feel like a baby bird. lol.

Getting Ready To Start TAXOL

So Monday is my first treatment with the second drug. For this drugs I have to take steroids the day before.. the morning of.. right before... after.. and for a few days after.. if that tells you how scary this drug is. In many ways though it will very possibly be better because the nausea is so much less, and it doesn't hurt your heart!

Also after this treatment which is # 5 I will only have 3 more! I can NOT wait to be done! I want my hair back.. haha. As for AC it seems I got very lucky, and my counts have been recovering the same or better then before treatment! As long as they keep up, I will stay on track and be done shortly after the new year!

The one thing is the dizziness the second week has begun to hang on with its evil claws a little bit longer with each treatment.. it went from one day to now three. Luckily it passes and I still have good days where I feel normal, aside from being a Baldy haha. I still have my eyebrows AND eyelashes! and I hope they hang in there as well.. but if they don't at least I have Zoey, who is always good for a laugh. Puppies don't care if you have eyebrows thankfully :p