Brave. Bald. Beautiful

So I finally know how these wonderful animals feel! I too am bald because today I shaved my head! Rather then waiting a week and watching clumps of hair fall out all over I decided to do away with all of it! The guys that shaved my head first cut it shorter and shorter - 4 inches... 3 inches... 2 inchess... BUZZZZZZ! So I could get an idea of how my hair could look and be styled when it starts growing back this spring.

Everyone you talk to says it's not as bad as you think it will be.. and honestly you don't believe them. I didn't.. I thought my face would warp or my head would inflate.. or I'd look like I gained wait.. but honestly it really isn't as bad as you think it will be. I feel the same as I did before, my hair is just missing. Although I don't like how it looks, and I don't think it's attractive like it is on many women.. my wig is very pretty and so there's nothing to be upset about! I also got my pink wig cut short like my hair was before it "went on vacation" so it's much more attractive for a synthetic wig. My nice wig is real human hair.. and looks and feels that way!

A really great opportunity came out of today also. When I was finishing up getting my pink wig trimmed the next client came in and she was a 9 year old girl. This brave little girl is facing a different battle then cancer, she has something called Alopecia which is basically what chemo does to your hair except she's not on chemo and her body- I believe the immune system attacks her hair cells basically thinking they are bad like cancer cells. So people with Alopecia can not grow hair. I know this comes in a variety of severities and she up until 9years old did not have it. So just now is this little girl facing hair loss. The guys asked if I would surprise her with my pink wig and maybe make her feel like its not such a bad thing to wear wigs! I even took my pink one off and put my blonde one on and she wanted to watch! I truly believe that experiencing hair loss as a child is way more traumatic then as an adult, and I would have loved for someone to do the same for me. Even her parents were impressed with how real my blonde wig looked!

Tomorrow my little brother is buzzing his head also ( not all the way ) which I understand, I have wigs to wear! He does not.. and my Aunt is coming over to bring me cupcakes! While I can still eat such treats :) Zoey can not tell the difference between bald me and normal me with blonde hair... or even pink! So I think the worst of things are now behind me and it's time to start getting better! My Second AC treatment is Monday-Halloween So I will be wearing my pink wig and possibly wearing a costume. I will post pictures on my next update... pictures of my bald self will have to wait.. for now we can look at adorable kittens :D