So my CT and MRI results came back good news. My CT was really to look at my lungs and make sure these 4 spots were just scarring, if they weren't (and were the worse alternative) chemo would have altered them.. shrunk them or made them disappear. Good news is they are completely "stable" (exactly the same) so they are just scaring.. probably from smoking years ago, but they're also found in people who never smoked anything. They're actually one of the most common accidental B9 findings that happen in the medical world, but it took a check up CT for me to believe that of course :)
My CT also revealed an improvement where my tumors are located, but CT's are not for that, so thats why i got the MRI, turns out my MRI was just as good if not better! The thing with MRI's is that they can only compare them when done at the same location. because I DO NOT trust the radiologists at Good Shephard for missing my additional tumors I did not want to go back there, so the MRI I had rush can't be compared to my previous ones. However it did not show any masses! only a faint unfocused area (of contrast pick up) where the tumors were... and said to "appear to be treated by chemotherapy" because they can not compare it to anything. So basically if parts of my tumors are left, they're tiny, and the rest is a cloud, that most likely represents the changing in tissue.
I imagine it looks like a supernova, which is great, because the chemo worked and blew those suckers apart! This I'm hoping will mean no radiation in my future.. which I find out more on Wednesday when I meet with the Radiation Oncologist. This also makes me feel slightly better because if the chemo could do that to solid masses, if any cells did escape into other areas of my body they most likely where slaughtered as well!
In young women the pathology of their tumors can be chemo resistant, or not be as effective, and the bonus of doing chemo before removing them is knowing, it did its job :) So although I've been waiting 4 months with cancer still inside of me, which was not easy at first.... I now know it was worth it.
My Surgery is in exactly two weeks, and I am starting to get nervous as it approaches, but I also know its necessary for me to start living my life again... even if it takes a few months to get back to normal after the fact. the hardest part will be not driving for almost 2 months.. I'm going to be stuck at home even after I've been healing for a while.. And not being able to play with Zoey, or walk her, although she is a great walker and does not pull, I cant take that risk :/ So if anyone wants to come walk her for me we would both love you for it. <3 She is going to have to be crated for the first month when I'm around her so she doesn't jump on me :(
My hair has not started coming in normally yet, the fuzz just gets longer LOL. I'm hoping once I come out of the medical fog from surgery and such I will notice some growth. I do still have eyebrows and eyelashes, and actually wore mascara a week ago! I'm not planning on doing that again because I don't want to risk losing what I've got left. The neuropathy in my feet is very annoying... and may or may not go away, but after surgery I'm going to try some things to help it. Either way its not THAT bad, so I'm glad we didn't reduce my last chemo dose. The hot flashes however are VERY bad... and I've read tamoxifen (which ill have to start taking after surgery for the next 5 years) makes worse. Chemo-pause sucks ass.. but I do feel like my hormones are trying to make a comeback.. which is good for my hot flashes, but bad for cancer.
I have a feeling these next two weeks are going to fly by faster then I would like them to, but if my BrEaST friends can handle it... So can I.
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